Ask for help.
“Surely the LORD’s power is enough to save you. He can hear you when you ask him for help.
It is your evil that has separated you from your God. Your sins cause him to turn away from you, so he does not hear you. With your hands you have killed others, and with your fingers you have done wrong. With your lips you have lied, and with your tongue you say evil things.
People take each other to court unfairly, and no one tells the truth in arguing his case. They accuse each other falsely and tell lies. They cause trouble and create more evil. They hatch evil like eggs from poisonous snakes. If you eat one of those eggs, you will die, and if you break one open, a poisonous snake comes out. People tell lies as they would spin a spider’s web. The webs they make cannot be used for clothes; you can’t cover yourself with those webs.
The things they do are evil, and they use their hands to hurt others. They eagerly run to do evil, and they are always ready to kill innocent people.
They think evil thoughts. Everywhere they go they cause ruin and destruction. They don’t know how to live in peace, and there is no fairness in their lives. They are dishonest. Anyone who lives as they live will never have peace.” – Isaiah 59:1-8
I can remember times I chose to try to do things my way, on my own, and how they always ended up becoming evil.
Attempting this life without our Creator is like sailing without wind and driving without an engine. You can attempt it, force it, paddle it, and push it, but you’ll never arrive without having totally exhausted yourself and totally messing it up.
There is no peace in that.