God’s always listening and He shares with us what to pray.
“If anyone belongs to Christ, there is a new creation. The old things have gone; everything is made new!” – 2 Corinthians 5:17
You said you felt like this slug, a ‘snail without a shell.’
It’s true, you are.
You said the God of Christianity was a ‘party pooper’ but He, instead, is the real ‘LIFE of the party.’
“But God shows his great love for us in this way: Christ died for us while we were still sinners.
So through Christ we will surely be saved from God’s anger, because we have been made right with God by the blood of Christ’s death.
While we were God’s enemies, he made us his friends through the death of his Son. Surely, now that we are his friends, he will save us through his Son’s life.
And not only that, but now we are also very happy in God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we are now God’s friends again.” – Romans 5:8-11
Yes, your ‘pursuit of happiness’ has made you an homeless slug but you have never done anything God did not know you would do.
You have not surprised God.
You have not gone beyond His reason.
You are His reason for sending Jesus.